Tuesday’s are sometimes just simple days. It’s on Tuesday that I’m not rushing to catch up from the weekend. It’s on Tuesday that I’m not hurriedly trying to get my work done before the week is over. It’s just Tuesday.
On this Tuesday I took my time feeding Conrad his breakfast, watching Charlie love on him and squeeze him…maybe a little too tight 😬 I watched them play, listened to Charlie sing her made up songs, snuggled Conrad as I worked at my desk, stole kisses from Charlie each time she came into my office, and just thanked God for these tiny gifts.
I still can’t believe I get to be a momma to these babes. They melt me, teach me, break me, and build me up. I love how every day is simple for them. No worries for deadlines or fears for their futures. Every day is Tuesday for them.
So why can’t I keep that Tuesday mindset? Why do I have to rush? Why do I move all the pieces of my life where I think they should fit? Why do I get upset when they don’t? Why do I schedule every second and crumble when things fall through? I overthink, worry, stress, yell with my “mom” voice, cry in my closet, and completely shut down. That’s not how Tuesday should be. That’s not how life should be. That’s not how a heart that loves Jesus should show his love. That’s simply not Tuesday.
So this Tuesday, I want to change. To simply breathe in and out. To simply let the day happen without making it happen. To simply sit and simply wait for the goodness that God already has for me to be revealed. Because maybe my overreacting, my overthinking and my overachieving have just been over the top. Maybe all God was wanting me to do was to simply get over myself. Maybe God said let down your weights of the weeks to come, and just let it be Tuesday. Maybe every day won’t be simple, but maybe if I approach every day like a Tuesday, I’ll be better able to simply enjoy this precious life.