Open the Eyes of My Heart

“Open the eyes of my heart, Lord.

Open the eyes of my heart

I want to see you

To see you high and lifted up

Shining in the light of your glory

Pour out your power and love as we cry holy, holy, holy.”

My Charlie Girl has picked up this song at church and loves to sing it. I thought it was absolutely adorable at first! Aww she’s learning worship songs, bless her little heart! But as she would keep singing this song over and over and over and over again because that’s just how 2.5 year old kids sing songs, and I would join in with her….I finally felt it. I felt that God was working in me through this little voice. God wanted me to repeat these words as many times as I needed to until I actually meant them.

Open the eyes of my heart, Lord. I want to see you.

I did want to see him in my life and all around me, but my eyes were shut tight. I was refusing to see his joy in all situations even though I knew it had been there the whole time. It was easier for me to know God was there, but to keep the joy at arms length because, it felt better there.

I was reading a book while we were on vacation about two brothers preparing to go on a trip of a lifetime. The brother that had come up with the idea in the first place soon got cold feet and began to dread the days leading up to the trip. He worried about getting work finished, missing time with his family, and taking on such an unknown challenge. Finally his brother said to him, ” You’re cheating yourself if you refuse to enjoy what’s coming.”

This was me! But I wasn’t only cheating myself, I was cheating God. This joyful life he had given me was being worried away.

“Be anxious for nothing” Philippians 4:6 is written on my husband’s whiteboard in his office at work. I see it everyday and he continuously has to remind me to do just that.

“6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Wednesday night at church we discussed having a Christlike mind. Well my mind has already been made up these past few weeks and it’s just been a big mess of emotions. I haven’t bothered giving all of my requests to God and have been guarding my heart and mind all by myself.

And it hasn’t been working.

It’s really astonishing how God weaves little life things together for us into the bigger picture he wants us to see.

God wanted me to get this!

He gave me a phrase from a book I was reading for fun. He gave me a verse on a board and a husband who lives it. He gave me a daughter that sings a song over and over again. And he gave me a church that challenges me to grow and search my heart.

If we want to see God, to really see him. If we want to see God high and lifted up, shining in the light of his glory, then we just need to stop worrying like he doesn’t already have our life handled, and ask him to open the eyes of our hearts.

And once our eyes and hearts and minds are fully open to God, that’s where we find the joy. His love and power are poured out into our lives, and poured into the people around us.