The Junk Bucket

I rarely remember my dreams or read much into them, but this one just stuck with me. I’m pretty sure it had something to do with having just watched the movie, Arrival. Arrival is about aliens coming to earth to share a new universal language with humans, that if understood, allows them to see into the future. It was weird. But what stuck with me wasn’t future telling languages, but actually the spidery looking aliens. 

I had this dream that for some reason I was keeping this huge bucket of gross gunky junk in my house. I don’t know what it was, I would compare it to a compost pile but much worse. It was just disgusting. It was getting full, and it started to spill out. Then all of a sudden these little spidery things, smaller versions of the aliens on the Arrival movie, came out of the nasty goopey junk, and were hopping around my house. (I hate spiders and when I see them in the house I usually drop dumbells on them.) I should have been trying to kill these spiders, but for some reason I was trying to catch them, scoop up the gunk, and put it all back in the bucket. 

My husband kept saying, just get rid of the bucket and the spiders will go away! But I couldn’t do it. I just kept chasing around these spiders and putting them back in the bucket and cleaning up the mess.

End dream. Thank Goodness.

When I woke up I tried to make sense of this weirdness. And then it all came together.

I’m not a keeper of matieral things. I love organization, clean closets, and getting rid of the excess. Out with the old. However, emotionally I am a junk keeper. 

I feel like through this dream God was showing me something that needs addressed. The junk bucket I’ve been storing in my heart.

My junk bucket is filled with my stored up emotions of guilt, anxiety, hurts, jealousy, and fear. 

And the spiders hopping out of my bucket, are my human emotional reactions. They’re emotions that have been piled on and trapped inside for too long, and as soon as they find a way out they escape, and I have to chase them all over to get them back in check.

And while I think it’s normal for all of us to have buckets of emotional junk and be a little emotional from time to time, it’s important that we ask God to help us dump out our buckets and squash the spiders before they start spilling over into our lives and making a mess.

God doesn’t want us to keep carrying around this junk. It’s of no use to us now, it’s over, it’s done, and it’s taking His place in our hearts. 

Next time I wish he would share this with me using something other than spiders.